Yonke imifanekiso ngoncedo lukaDmitrij Panov
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Ngomhla wokuqala kuFebruwari 2016, uDmitrij Panov oneminyaka engama-25 ubudala wapapasha iposti kwibhlog yakhe :
Molo, igama lam ndinguDmitrij Panov kwaye I & apos; ndiza kufa kungekudala. Ingavakala ingaqhelekanga, kodwa kunjani ukuba njalo. '
Ngenye imini, malunga neminyaka emine ngaphambilana — ngoDisemba ka-2011 —uDmitrij wayelinde yedwa kwigumbi lokubhalela iimviwo, edinwe kukuhlolwa yi-MRI awayesandula ukuyifumana. Emva kokubona ukuskena, ugqirha wayefuna imizuzwana embalwa ukumchonga. Ukukhula okubi kweseli kwingqondo yakhe-ithumba. Ndixolile, nguDmitrij kwangoko wafowunela umama wakhe emxelela ukuba ekugqibeleni uyayazi ingxaki yakhe.
UDmitrij wafunda izifundo zengqondo eMarburg, apho waya kugqirha xa wayengakwazi ukuthatha iintlungu zemihla ngemihla emqolo kunye nomnqweno wokuhlala ugabha kwakhona. Ugqirha wamathambo wayecinga ukuba luhlobo oluthile loxinzelelo-ingcali yomzimba yamthumela kugqirha. Ngenye imini, malunga nenyanga kamva, uDmitrij wayedlala iTetris xa ngequbuliso wawa phantsi. Wavuka kwiklinikhi yaseyunivesithi eMarburg, kwaye ekugqibeleni wabona ugqirha wemithambo-luvo. Xa kwaqinisekiswa ukuba wayenethumba ebuchotsheni, utyando lwacwangciswa ngentsasa elandelayo. Wayejonge phambili kotyando nakwimitha elandelayo. Intlungu, ukugabha, nokuphelelwa ngamandla — konke oko bekuya kuphela. UDmitrij uthathe isemester ekholejini ukuze achache. Ekuqaleni, wayefumana unyango lwemitha rhoqo emva kweeveki ezintandathu, nasemva kweenyanga ezimbalwa.
Oogqirha babengenalo ixesha elininzi kuye — ngamanye amaxesha omnye wabo wayebuza ukuba uziva njani. Kodwa u-Dmitrij & apos; s uzive iimpendulo zakhe zihlala zithatha ixesha elide-ebefuna amagama angaphezulu ukuze achaze imeko awayekuyo kunokuba umonde ugqirha wayefuna. Ngelinye ixesha, emva kokuba umongikazi etsalile igazi kuye, iibhulukhwe zikaDmitrij zazigqunywe ligazi. Akazange afumane xolo.
'Kwiintsuku ezilandela utyando, ndiye ndafunda malunga nezibonelelo ze-anesthetics ezinamandla (imibono!) Kunye ne-catheter (eya kwi-loo yeyabantu abaqhelekileyo). Emva kweentsuku ezilishumi, ndaphinda ndarhubuluza ndabuyela ehlabathini. Emva koko ndafumana i-radiation kunye ne-chemo-kwaye konke kwakulungile kwiminyaka embalwa elandelayo. Ngekulungile ukuba kulapho laphela khona eli bali. '
Unyango lube yimpumelelo, kwaye emva kweminyaka emibini yokuba engenawo umhlaza, iingxaki zikaDmitrij & apos zaye zathomalala. Kodwa kuphela kubalwa 'njengokungenamhlaza' emva kweminyaka emihlanu-hayi emibini.
Waqala izifundo zakhe zengqondo kwaye wabuyela ebomini bakhe bokudlala imidlalo yevidiyo kunye nokubukela iifilimu nabahlobo. Ujoyine iqela lezemidlalo, waxoxa ngeefilimu kwiforum yeefilimu ezikwi-Intanethi, kwaye wadibana nabantu abavela kwiforum ebomini bokwenyani. Wayeluthanda olo luntu: Ukuqala kwakhe ukugula iindaba zasasazeka ngokukhawuleza kuFacebook-abantu ababemazi kwi-intanethi kuphela bamrhalela ukuba bamxhase. Ukutyhubela iminyaka, uDmitrij ebeqokelele ii-DVD ezingama-680 — eyona ayithandayo Bulala uBill , Ubukumkani boNyanga, kunye nenguqulelo yoqobo yaseMzantsi Korea ye- Umdala .
Nge-Epreli ka-2015, unyaka nje omnye phambi kokuba athathwe ngokusemthethweni njengomhlaza, wazifumana sele ebuyile eofisini. Kwafunyaniswa ukuba unophinda kwakhona — uhlobo olunye lwethumba kwindawo enye. Waphinda wenza olunye utyando, lwalandelwa yimitha kunye ne-chemo. Kwafuneka aqale ukubala iminyaka engenawo umhlaza.
UDmitrij ngokumakisha kunyango lwe-radiation
Kufuphi nasekupheleni kuka-2015 kwavavanywa i-spinal fluid, eyakhokelela kuvavanyo olutsha: i-metastases yengqondo. Kwalandela umjikelo omtsha wekhemotherapy — oogqirha babengafuni ukususa imastastase, kodwa bafuna 'ukwandisa umgangatho wobomi bakhe kangangoko banako.' Wayenenqanaba 4 medulloblastoma kwi Inxalenye yengqondo yakhe nefuthe kulawulo lweemoto zakhe. Ukuba ikhudlwana, inokuchaphazela ibhalansi yakhe, okanye ucinezele ngokuchasene necortex ebonakalayo. I-Medulloblastomas ngamanye amaxesha ibizwa ngokuba 'ngamathumba abantwana' kuba ubukhulu becala avela kubantu abancinci. Khange lubekho uphando malunga nezinto abazenzayo kubantu abadala nakubantu abadala abancinci njengoDmitrij, ke oogqirha kuye kwafuneka bazame.
Iindaba zokuba bekungekho nto iyenziwayo azimangalisi u-Dmitrij-inyani yokuba ibingasebenzi kwaye ithetha ukuba angayichitha iKrisimesi nomakhulu wakhe endaweni yokuya esibhedlele. Wayesele elukhumbula usuku lokuzalwa kwakhe ngelixa wayefumana ichemotherapy.
Iindaba zamzisa ekubhaleni iposti yokuqala yebhlog, nge-2 AM ngoFebruwari 1:
Molo, igama lam ndinguDmitrij Panov kwaye I & apos; ndiza kufa kungekudala. Ingavakala ingaqhelekanga, kodwa kunjani ukuba njalo. '
Wabiza idayari yakhe ekwi-intanethi 'Ukufa neSwag' kwaye wapapasha into entsha rhoqo ngeentsuku ezine-ukubonisa ukuba indawo enganyangekiyo nengaphephekiyo ayisiyiyo yonke loo nto imbi. Wayefuna ukushiya into ngasemva.
UDmitrij wazalelwa eSoviet Union, kwiminyaka engama-25 eyadlulayo. Intambo yesambatho yayisongelwe entanyeni yakhe kwaye wayengaphefumli. Ngokomama wakhe, kuthathe iiyure ezine ukumvuselela. Uhlala iikhilomitha ezingama-30 ukusuka eDmitrij, eHerborn. Ngoku, wayeya kuphulukana nokuphela komntwana wakhe.
Emva kokundwendwela kwakhe eklinikhi, wayegoduka aye kwigumbi ahlala kulo nomhlobo wakhe osenyongweni uSabine. UDmitrij uthetha nomama wakhe emnxebeni rhoqo, kodwa akazange afune ukubuyela kuye-yena ucaphuka msinya kwaye, ngokukaDmitrij, akukho & wifi ifanelekileyo kunina & ampos. Akazange abuyele ezifundweni zakhe, kodwa wazalisa iintsuku zakhe ebukela iimuvi kwaye edlala imidlalo yevidiyo. Iqela lakhe lemidlalo yeqonga lenze u-Oscar Wilde & apos; s Ukubaluleka kokufumana umvuzo , kwaye ngobusuku bokuvula wakhubeka, edikidiki, eqongeni. Emva kokuqhwatywa kwezandla okokugqibela, abo afunda nabo bamsa kwangoko kwikliniki yaseyunivesithi.
'Kancinci, uvakalelo lokuba andizukuphuma kule kliniki luya lusomelela. Kulindeleke ukuba iaposise ibe mandundu. Ngaba ndiyayamkela loo nto? Hayi ngoku. Kuyacaphukisa ukuba oogqirha basoloko bekwenza ubalinde. Ndineentlungu emqolo, imilenze yam, iintlungu kwi-esile lam zihlala zibuya; IV iqhubeka ivuza. Isenokuba mandundu. Andifuni ukucinga ngento endiza kuyenza xa ikho. '
(Epreli 29, 2016)
UDmitrij waphinda wenza olunye utyando kunye nezinye iiveki ezintandathu zemitha. Weva ukuba unokukhubazeka ngenxa yenkunkuma ezantsi, waqala ukubhala umyolelo-iiDVD zakhe zaziza kufuna umnini mtsha. Xa iindonga ezimhlophe zekliniki zazibonakala ngathi zimvalele, kwamnceda ukuba afunde amagqabantshintshi abafundi bakhe.
Into ebikade ibalulekile kum kwaye ayisasebenzi kwakhona:
Ikholeji.
Ngesondo. '
(Nge-Julayi 2016, 'Ndibuze Nantoni na' kwiReddit)
Wangeniswa kwiziko lokubuyisela kwimeko yesiqhelo-hayi indawo yokunyamekela abaguli, kuba wayengenakufa kungekudala. Wayengafuni nokwazi ukuba lingakanani ixesha elishiyekileyo, ngokuchanekileyo. Akoyiki kufa- abanye abantu bafa bengonwabanga beneminyaka eli-100, uyakufa ezaliseka phambi kokuba aneminyaka engama-30. Wabhala ukuba akanomdla wokujikeleza umhlaba, kodwa ukhathazekile ngokushiywa ngabambalwa izinto: ukuba akazange aye konke-wena-ungatya i-buffet yaseTshayina ngekona ukusuka kwivenkile yasePenny eBonn. Kwaye ukungabinakho ukudlala yonke imidlalo yevidiyo engekakhululwa.
Ixesha lokugqibela, ndibhale ukuba andiyikwesaba ukufa. Mhlawumbi bekufanele ukuba nditsho ukuba andoyiki ukufa. Xa usifa, akusekho bomi kuwe kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndicinga ukuba andiboyiki ubomi. '
(UCanzibe 11, 2016)
Ngomhla oshushu ngoMeyi walo nyaka, uDmitrij wayekwigumbi le-neurology kwikliniki yase-Hesse-ebambekile egumbini lakhe kwaye engakwazi nokushukuma. Kulapho ndadibana naye khona. Ezinye izigulana ziye zahamba zaya ngaphandle, okanye zilele engceni epakini. Ikliniki inelinye iphiko labantu abaneengxaki zengqondo kunye nelinye labantu ababuyisela amandla abo emzimbeni. Ngamanye amaxesha, uDmitrij wayengaqiniseki ukuba leliphi iphiko awayekulo.
Wayebukela iimovie, edlala imidlalo, kwaye ekrobe ngefestile, ejonge ehlathini. Umbono awuzange ube nomdla kuye. Umqolo wakhe wabuhlungu, wayengenako ukufumana indawo entle iintsuku ezininzi. Ukuxilongwa kwakhe kokugqibela yayiyenye imastastasis, ekhule kwenye yeethambo zakhe. Wayengaboni kakuhle ngamanye amaxesha, eya kuhlala kangangesiqingatha seyure.
'Kusasa / emini emaqanda yeyona nto ibuhlungu ebomini bam. Kulungile malunga neyure (enkosi kwiparacetamol bendinomkhuhlane). Kude kude ekubeni kulunge, kodwa ndiyakwazi ukuhlala kwaye I & apos; andisoloko ndikhala ngentlungu. Ndiyathemba ukuba izakuhlala injalo — okokuqala kuba andithandi ukuphuma apha, okwesibini kuba andiqinisekanga ukuba ndingaphinde ndiyithathe. '
(NgoJuni 4, 2016)
UDmitrij wagoduswa ngoJuni 9 kulo nyaka.
Emva kokubhubha kwakhe, uSabine uza kuthumela ibhlog yakhe yokugqibela kuye.